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Nikki's Training Journal

This is where I will post about my thoughts and feelings about training as a sub.  Feel free to ask questions as they come up.

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  1. I learned a valuable lesson last night. I learned that when your Dom tells you to do something, even when it is difficult or uncomfortable, as a sub I need to trust that he won't steer me wrong because he really does want what's best for me. It is difficult handing over that control to someone else but if you have trust and respect for your Dom, he will take care to make good decisions that will help me grow and be happy. So listen to your Dom. Especially if he is the Ultimate Dom of the Universe like Daddy.

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  2. Daddy has me do tasks. Just about every day it is something new. Well for the past several days my task has been driving me crazy. When he assigned it he said this will be uncomfortable for you and dig deep and be honest. Well, easier said than done. I am kicking and screaming trying to do this and I don't like it at all. Does every sub in training have to do tasks? Or is my Dom just mean?

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  3. Oh and I just wanted to also comment that I have a renewed respect for my sister. She is a great writer and I see her doing research and working day and night and never really appreciated how hard writing is. Glad I am not going to school to become a writer.

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    1. AWWW- Thanks kiddo! I'm glad you noticed. It means a lot to me. It's not an easy task- but it is fun!

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  4. Training is not easy. OK I just had to put that out there. If you are a subbie in training, hopefully your Dom is challenging you. Every time Daddy requires me to do a task, I feel, well, weird. I am required to answer a question or write something like a fantasy or whatever in a completely honest way. There is no room for lying or deception in this relationship. If your Dom is any good, he or she is pushing you past your comfort zone. This is the case for me. But, I can see the results. I am becoming more aware. More aware of me, and my desires. I am also learning to trust. It is a scary feeling to basically turn yourself over to someone else. But if you get to know them, have trust and faith in them, then it can be really great. So thank you Daddy for pushing me beyond my comfort zone.

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  5. I am thinking that maybe, just maybe motivational spankings (in the morning only) may not be such a bad idea after all. They do make you stop and reconnect before you go on with the rest of your day. Also, that sting for the following few hours is a reminder to behave. Not fun though when you are heading to school and will be sitting in a hard chair for 4 or more hours.

    Actually, I am pretty sure I can sneak out of the house early though on school days and 'accidentally' miss the motivation. It's only 2 days a week that I actually have lecture so I think I can get away with it. Hey, a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do!

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